nothing much to say today. woke up, found out that my mum and younger brother , louis, were at home. turns out that my mum and brother were sick. they went doctor and just came back. so i prepared for today's school and left the house.
today was damn sian. the first lesson was communication skills. sian. study about english. i hate language subjects. somemore i dont understand a lot of things. then next lesson was intro to hosp and tourism lecture. i didnt print out the notes beforehand. so go thr do nothing. stone, sms. dots hor. the lecture ended 35 minutes earlier. yay (:
then i received a message from darling. very sad. ): at that time i also dont know what happen to her. why is she crying.? i wanna know. but sadly, she doesnt wanna tell. or maybe she just feels uncomfortable to confide in me. i dont know, seriously. when i reached home, she was still sleeping. zzz.
so i went to play soccer with xd at the basketball court. very sian. nowadays also raining everyday. no soccer, no fishing. ): but no darling is the worst thing that can ever happen. ))): then she told me about her problem, FINALLY. turns out to be friends and studies. also can see that from her blog. dont worry la, it'll be alright. dont think too much okays?
these few nights, i dont know why. but i've been thinking about ME,YOU,AND US. i've realised there's a lot to be improved on if we wanna make this last. ): im not as good as you expected me to be. and i know it myself. i wanna be the best bf you ever had but. hais. and we meet very seldom. which is a bad point also. ):
i also always tend to be sad only at night. dont know why. but usually, by the next morning, all the sadness will leave temporarily. but it will still come back at night to haunt me. i really wanna be there for you, share your sadness with you, console you in times when you're feeling down but we have our own difficulties. we have practically no time for each other. we're busy with our own stuffs. this cant go on you know. its saddening to know that it's happening to us.
i have no more time to fetch you from school, as my school usually ends late and i really regret not spending more time with you during my holidays. i've not done enough to deserve your love and i know that i have to do more, in order to sustain our relationship. im a introvert by nature and nothing can change the fact. im cowardly, shy and a noob in love. im born like that. but im a coward who is willing to try and i hope you will have the patience to wait for me.
speaking about marriage, i really do hope it happens to us both. cos it seems that our love is deep. and not those kinda puppy love; i hope. for now, i just hope we'll last and i'll give you my 100% too. GF>FRIENDS (:
love you,
Labels: 12.20am, Sadness doesnt seem to go away. 3 may
it's good u realisedi'll love u with all my heart <3